This week has been quite crazy with working at the bookstore and getting ready for the Tanzania trip… and as a trip leader, it’s especially busy. I am a natural “worryer”. I admit it. Whenever something big is happening that I have some responsibility in, I worry like crazy that everything is going to work out, that all the details will be taken care of, that nothing will be missed. That’s what I’ve been doing this last week and this week, until just recently.

God reminded me that for all my fretting and worrying about the trip, and wanting to control everything to make sure it gets done right, I am missing a great opportunity to trust in God, and his provision, guidance, and protection. I know that God is in control, and that he has my best interest at heart. He has called me to this team, and to leadership on the team, and He has promised to carry me through. Ashley (my co-leader) reminded me of something that she was reminded of by someone else… that it is when we feel inadequate that God can best use us, because the truth is, we aren’t adequate… but He is.

These song lyrics by Ginny Owens have been on my mind alot lately, they really capture perfectly how I’m feeling. It’s called “I Am”.

No Lord, he said, you’ve got the wrong guy.
Simple conversation gets me tongue-tied.
And you’re telling me to speak with a maniac king.
Could it be I’ve lost my mind?
And besides, I am weak, don’t you want someone strong,
To lead them out of Egypt when they’ve been there so long?
And anyway, they wont believe You ever spoke to me.
That’s not your problem, God replied.
And the rest is history.

There’s a bigger picture you can’t see.
You don’t have to change the world, just trust in me.
‘Cause I am your creator, I am working out my plan,
And through you I will show them, I Am.

Now Lord, are you sure? He’s just a shepherd boy,
Too small for battle gear with a giant to destroy.
What on earth can he do with five stones and a sling?
That’s not your problem, God replied.
‘Cause I can do anything.

There’s a bigger picture you can’t see.
You don’t have to change the world, just trust in me.
‘Cause I am your creator, I am working out my plan,
And through you, I will show them,
I Am the first, I Am the last,
I Am the present and the past,
I Am tomorrow and today,
I Am the only way.

Great Lord, she said, I’m just a simple girl.
You say that I will bring your son into the world.
How can I understand this thing You’re gonna do?
That’s not your problem, God replied.

‘Cause, there’s a bigger picture,
And you don’t have to change the world.
I’m your creator, I am working out my plan.
And through you, I will show them,
There’s a bigger picture, you can’t see.
You don’t have to change the world, just trust in me.
I’m your creator, I am working out my plan,
And through you, I will show them, I Am.

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